I remember the first time someone said I was a leader. My reaction was one of shock. I had never thought of myself that way nor had anyone said those words over me. I even began to argue with the person, as if they were mistaken.
I remember going into my first “leadership meeting” and feeling that I was so over my head. I was afraid someone was going to realize I was clueless about what I was supposed to do. I felt like I was in 7th grade all over again, and just prayed no one would notice me. I realized quickly I was going be much stronger than I had ever been and willing to take risks, even if I embarrassed myself.
It took me years to get comfortable in the leadership seat and with my leadership voice. And even today after 15 years in various leadership positions, I am still learning. I am still reading books on leadership, watching other leaders and how they lead, and reaching out to mentors who are more seasoned in their leadership role. My dad is a leader and I still have to call him to solicit advice on how to handle some situations. As many resources as I have in reach, I still make mistakes. All leaders make mistakes. As painful as those leadership lessons are, they are lessons that have been invaluable.
I currently lead a team of 115 people who come from different backgrounds, many with credentials more impressive than mine own, but for some reason God has put me in a place where I can influence and hopefully make a difference. When I look back on my life, God had a plan all along. So many doors He opened. So many events He used to prepare me just as he did for Queen Esther. So many events allowed her to be in her position for that very moment, “for such a time as this” (Esther 4:17 HSCB).
I have led all kinds of teams and many different kinds of people over the years. Many days have been challenging and difficult, but many more have been so rewarding it would be impossible to find the words to describe. I have loved leading. But I am constantly reminded that God has asked me to be the best steward for His purposes. Not mine, but His. The challenges we face, as leaders are His, as are the thing we hope to accomplish.
Women are leading in a powerful way in the world. Many are influencing their families, churches, communities and workplaces. We have more influence than ever before, so it’s important we steward it well. Let’s start this journey now and commit to pray for each other.
